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...had one of those moments where you're just sitting there trying to talk to people on the internet and you all of a sudden wonder what the hell you're doing? Ever had that feeling like what the hell's the point in trying, there's marginally few that come close to even liking or understanding half the things I say, what the hell am I trying for? I know that's life and you truck on and still keep doing the best you can, but I've run out of gumption and just plain feel...worthless. I mean hell, I'm a 27 year old that spends time talking to a bunch of teenagers, how pathetic is that if you look at it as objectively as possible?
Then I wonder what the hell I'm typing even THIS for, because it's not that I want my ego stroked with the affectionate graces "Oh, you poor thing I hope you feel better" and I sure as hell don't want to listen to anyone harping on about how much better they are than me because I'm actually willing to admit I'm not a perfect person instead of hiding my faults inside a closet and flipping out when someone points them out. (That last bit could be paranoia right there.)
I think my ego just took a beating and I need to figure out a way to have a good laugh about it because really, being humbled is the greatest thing that could honestly happen to a person and everyone needs knocked off their pedestal and reminded of how we're not as important as we like to think we are, we just are.
So...anyone have any ideas for sparking me into having a laugh at this whole thing and moving on? I can't find it myself and it sucks. Maybe it's because I'm sick and grumpy anyways. <_<
Then I wonder what the hell I'm typing even THIS for, because it's not that I want my ego stroked with the affectionate graces "Oh, you poor thing I hope you feel better" and I sure as hell don't want to listen to anyone harping on about how much better they are than me because I'm actually willing to admit I'm not a perfect person instead of hiding my faults inside a closet and flipping out when someone points them out. (That last bit could be paranoia right there.)
I think my ego just took a beating and I need to figure out a way to have a good laugh about it because really, being humbled is the greatest thing that could honestly happen to a person and everyone needs knocked off their pedestal and reminded of how we're not as important as we like to think we are, we just are.
So...anyone have any ideas for sparking me into having a laugh at this whole thing and moving on? I can't find it myself and it sucks. Maybe it's because I'm sick and grumpy anyways. <_<
QuoteWords exist because of meaning. Once you've gotten the meaning, you can forget the words. Where can I find a man who has forgotten words so I can talk with him? ~Chuang Tzu
wow..what happened?
did someone flip on you for something online? ..like some 14 year old bitch who think she knows the world already and how dare you talk to her like that and blah blah blah shut up already? cuz that has happened to me on more than one occasion. those are called deadbeat trolls who need a good ass-whoopin. they can go fuck themselves.
did someone flip on you for something online? ..like some 14 year old bitch who think she knows the world already and how dare you talk to her like that and blah blah blah shut up already? cuz that has happened to me on more than one occasion. those are called deadbeat trolls who need a good ass-whoopin. they can go fuck themselves.
No, nothing like that. More like a lot of little things building up. You try to brush them off and move on with life but more like you find you actually just bottled them up.
Words exist because of meaning. Once you've gotten the meaning, you can forget the words. Where can I find a man who has forgotten words so I can talk with him? ~Chuang Tzu
ah. that happens to my bf a lot. he eventually explodes. i'm still trying to figure out how to keep that from happening with him, so i don't really know what to tell you :\
Eh I'm not exploding. Just kind of in a depressed funk like "Damn, people don't like me that much. That sucks."
Words exist because of meaning. Once you've gotten the meaning, you can forget the words. Where can I find a man who has forgotten words so I can talk with him? ~Chuang Tzu
yeah, i've been there all too often. it makes me kinda sad for a while, especially if i thought that they actually did like me, but after that i just say, "fuck em! i got plenty of people in my life who do like me, and that's all i need." and go hang out with them until i'm my happy self again. although to be honest, the number of people is very few, but that's because i'm so anti-social. it doesn't bother me much. and i recently deleted a bunch of people on my fb and my cell who were just bringing me down cuz of that. made me feel tons better :)
just surround yourself with people who make you happy, because those who are making you feel this way are poisonous to your spirit and your health. you don't need them in your life.
just surround yourself with people who make you happy, because those who are making you feel this way are poisonous to your spirit and your health. you don't need them in your life.
Well I like you! And oddly enough I am also 27 haha, I'll be 28 the eleventh though. I feel the same way as you sometimes. I don't feel there is a point in talking to some people and yet I try anyway.
For what it's worth, lateralus, I think you're in my top three favourite people on Ernya. You're pretty awesome actually, if you need to hear it. And if it helps at all, we're not ALL teenagers- I'm in my twenties too, there seems like there's a few of us in that age range here.
But those facts aside, I do know the feeling you're talking about. I'm a very active member of a writer's forum on another site, and as someone who is single-mindedly concerned with novel writing as a career, I take it very seriously. And sometimes it feels like I send my entire damn day giving writing advice to 13 year olds who don't actually give a damn about strengthening their writing skills, because they just want to go back to writing about Harry kissing Draco in Snape's office. Or when I spend half an hour writing up a two-page critique for some kid, who responds with "I don't care you don't have to like it I didn't post it here for your approval I never asked for your opinion anyway." Wtf. And yeah, it gets me down sometimes, so I'll go through a period of time (I'm on one right now) where I'll just avoid that place and pop in every couple of days to see if anyone I recognize as quality writer's-discussion people posted anything I can actually talk about without feeling like a pouf.
My prescription: Surround yourself with the people who make you feel good, or the people you know understand where you're coming from, and then when you get down on this whole internet thing you have a group of friends to bring your spirits back up.
But those facts aside, I do know the feeling you're talking about. I'm a very active member of a writer's forum on another site, and as someone who is single-mindedly concerned with novel writing as a career, I take it very seriously. And sometimes it feels like I send my entire damn day giving writing advice to 13 year olds who don't actually give a damn about strengthening their writing skills, because they just want to go back to writing about Harry kissing Draco in Snape's office. Or when I spend half an hour writing up a two-page critique for some kid, who responds with "I don't care you don't have to like it I didn't post it here for your approval I never asked for your opinion anyway." Wtf. And yeah, it gets me down sometimes, so I'll go through a period of time (I'm on one right now) where I'll just avoid that place and pop in every couple of days to see if anyone I recognize as quality writer's-discussion people posted anything I can actually talk about without feeling like a pouf.
My prescription: Surround yourself with the people who make you feel good, or the people you know understand where you're coming from, and then when you get down on this whole internet thing you have a group of friends to bring your spirits back up.
I go through phases with forums, where I'll post on them for a while and then stay away for a while. It definitely helps me, as I'm in my 20's as well and just don't find the same things interesting as the vast majority of avatar forums. I'm more likely to really just stay on PSC for the most part, and then come here to Ernya and go to the other two avatar forums I'm a part of here and there.
I've definitely felt the whole 'what's the point' sort of stuff before, though. But that's when I know it's time for a break. I know I'll get back to it again some other time, so it's no big deal.
I've definitely felt the whole 'what's the point' sort of stuff before, though. But that's when I know it's time for a break. I know I'll get back to it again some other time, so it's no big deal.
You guys are awesome. : )
I think being sick didn't help, had to go to the Doctor's office today. I just may take a break and hop on Dragon Age for a while, lol. How can Ohgren not make me feel better? (At least until I'm not sick...wouldn't want to infect my friends and family. XD)
I think being sick didn't help, had to go to the Doctor's office today. I just may take a break and hop on Dragon Age for a while, lol. How can Ohgren not make me feel better? (At least until I'm not sick...wouldn't want to infect my friends and family. XD)
Words exist because of meaning. Once you've gotten the meaning, you can forget the words. Where can I find a man who has forgotten words so I can talk with him? ~Chuang Tzu
If doing these things makes you happy, or just helps you take a break from whatever it is in life, then it's not something pathetic or sad.
And I always found your wisdom to be really helpful in a variety of topics and I really respect you. Though you can always move on to a forum not based on avatars, which is usually targeted at above 18 if you feel like the current group you're around is bringing you down.
My partner is a really busy and successful person, but he takes the time to visit forums just for fun regardless of age or level of thinking. And I think enjoyment is the most important thing.
And I always found your wisdom to be really helpful in a variety of topics and I really respect you. Though you can always move on to a forum not based on avatars, which is usually targeted at above 18 if you feel like the current group you're around is bringing you down.
My partner is a really busy and successful person, but he takes the time to visit forums just for fun regardless of age or level of thinking. And I think enjoyment is the most important thing.
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I feel ya, Im almost 24 and I spend my time playing on line.
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