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About KonichiwaElifz

There was a girl named Leylla ELIFZ... she was invisible to the world...





"These violent delights have violent ends . . ."

But....before you waste your time, and mine of course, please read the following: I'm human. I have my past, my secrets and a handful of regrets. I've done things that I'm not proud of and will have to carry with me for as long I keep on breathing. I've had my moments in the spotlight, where life couldn't get any better and I had everything I wanted. But I've also had to struggle with the obstacles that life has thrown at me, from the big to small. But throughout it all, I've learned to like the person that I've become. I've gone from believing that kindness has no limit to understanding that the only limit it has is ourselves. I finally understand that though world can be full of chaos, if we open our eyes and listen, we'll find unforgettable beauty. But most of all I've learned to live with life day by day. Losing or gaining no longer affects me the way it should. Everything happens for a reason. And I will take it in any way it comes.



I'm not one to understand myself completely. I gave up on finding who I am, and focused on who I can be; with every step I take I will slowly find my way. In short terms, I am a difficult person. I've learned to live by my own rules and nobody else's. Self-survival is a top priority; it is the foundation of my life and nature. My emotions get the best of me and I very seldom rely on logic. At times I tend to be selfish at the worst moments, and when I am, I'm selfish at my worst.


This is the most important thing about me:
I've lost and given up on a lot of people that I have met throughout my life. Trust is something I rarely believe in and hardly give away. I've been through enough to know that it's human nature to run when life throws something at you that you can't handle. Life has taught me that people come and go. Nobody is meant to stay in one place. I'm nice to everyone I meet. Give me a reason, and I will drop you like a rock without hesitation. I don't hate anyone; nobody is worth that much. I don't hold grudges simply because I don't like to waste my time on people who, at the end of the day, mean nothing to me. And in all truth, very few people mean something to me. To sum it all up, I'm a strong person. And no matter what, I try to keep my head held high. I live my life my way, and I won't let anybody get in the way. Think twice before you come into my life; stepping over someone to get what I want is something I have no problem in doing.

What I do is my business, not yours. The decision that I make are mine to make, so don't judge me, otherwise I will turn the tables around. Before you find flaws in someone else, find yours and learn to accept them. My time is not always spent in the best ways. But everything I do is in its moment, and that I rarely regret. Don't begin to lecture me about right and wrong, and how I should make better use of my time. Like I've said previously, it's my time I'm wasting so keep your opinions to yourself. I'll gladly thank you for it.

we accept the love we think we deserve.

I like to question everything that take place in this world. My mind has a habit of wondering off on its own. It seems like I'm always searching for answers that will fit into the puzzle as an undiscovered piece. And though I know there are things in life - both good and bad, happy and sad - that I don't understand yet, I have to believe there is a reason for why they happen. Also, through experiences, and learning from mistakes, I've slowly come to understand that there is more to right and wrong, and that sometimes, the right choice isn't always the best one. Above all, and despite my age, I've acknowledged that there are decisions set in front of us that will never apply to right or wrong as the "right" answer.

I'm not a big fan of company; I've always found a special comfort in solitude. My personality has never quite fit in among others. Through friendships, my thoughts and self-expression, and memories of happiness, I've learned that though I might not fit in with those my own age, it's alright to be my own person.





All of this is but a fraction of who I am. I could tell you whatever you'd like to know. It still wouldn't be enough. There are things that you have yet to find out. Some little. Some big. To be honest, I'm an open book, it just depends on how you read me. I come in two different languages. In smiles and tears. In laughter and silliness. In a colorful page or a plain canvas. And more than anything, I am who I am. It's just up to you which way you rather look it(:







My life is exactly where I want it. I have great friends, a good family, and an untold future ahead of me. With a strong head on my shoulders and the heart of a child, I will become a writer and an artist. Dense decisions get you nowhere, which is why I don't bother with stupidity. Unless I care for someone, I don't put up with others' bull. But for my loved ones, I would go out of my way and give them the world if I could.


"She ain't got a man but she's not alone



Thanks to everyone who decides to leave a message.
You rule!Well,unless it's a dumb message.In which case you
should choke on a coconut.


If you're wondering why I didn't reply to your message,chances are
the reason falls into one of these categories:
1]I forgot.[I forget all the time],
2]I suspected it was one of those annoying copy/past messages you send
to everyone hoping to get a gift.Though I may reply to those
too because I'm nice like that;Or
3]You suck.