I've decided to add some real information about me to my profile.
It's way too cold and plain with just that junk up there.
My name is Bao. :)
Geez, this is kind of awkward.
My favorite color is #3aa35d.
It's not green. It's not blue. It's notteal.
It's probably a mix of all those.
I don't know.
I'm obsessed with food.
Like creepy obsessed.
I'd probably marry a fruit tart if it didn't go bad.
What can I say? Food is too beautiful~
I play league of legends.
Play with me. :)
I disappear from Ernya pretty often.
Either because school or work.
Or simply because there's drama I want to avoid.
But I always come back~
I change my hair color A LOT so don't be surprised when I look different. :)
You go through life falling in love.
Thinking you'll love that one person forever.
Thinking that you'll never find someone else.
Thinking that your heart will never be the same.
I realized now that I was wrong.
I do still love you.
Just not the same.
You go though life finding others who are better.
Finding others who will love you back just as much.
Finding someone who wont make you so sad all the time.
Then you start to realize what love is.
It's different for everyone.
To me, it's being able to let go and still know they love you.
I might not see them for weeks or months or years.
I might never see them again.
But I know that we are in love.
The future is unpredictable.
If two people really love each other,
they'll be together once again.
They have to to just trust.
And if you never see them again,
it wasn't meant to be anyway.
If you really love someone,
you'll find them again in the future.
Or they'll find you.
It's okay to grieve or cry.
It's natural to be sad when someone you love leaves.
Just do yourself a favor and trust that they love you.
Or once loved you.
It'll hurt less.
Three people I love have left my life now.
The first one from death.
The second one from falling out.
And the third one...
I might never see them again.
But we're in love.
Saying goodbye was the hardest thing we had to do.
I stood there quietly trying not to cry.
I didn't want him to see my weakness.
He stood there quietly unsure.
We hugged and the tears just spilled out.
Both of us couldn't contain our sadness.
He took my keys from me.
We stood in that silent embrace for a good twenty minutes,
afraid to let go.
The last thing he said to me.
"Why is it so hard to let you go?"
I was lost for wards, the same question lingering in my mind.
With that, I said goodbye, took my keys back, and left.
I remember clearly, letting go was so hard.
I released my self from the embrace but our hands wanted each other.
As I walked away his hand slowly slid from mine, longing for a last touch.
That was when I realized, there's no need to be sad.
We love each other.
One day we'll see each other again.
He tolerated every side of me.
Every one of my personalities.
He kept me in line, on track.
He wasn't Haku 2.0.
He was his own person.
The one who made me not long for my Haku.
If I never see him again,
I will find someone else.
His memories will forever stay with me.
If I can find someone better than my Haku,
I will find him again.